The wind rustles through the trees, and brings you to me.

Internet hiatus temporarily lifted to say that I'm currently rejecting my reality. I can't even comprehend what's going on right now. My cat Dylan just this morning became seriously sick. Blood in stool, vomiting, listless, barely opens his eyes, just wants to sleep, the whole deal. My parents didn't want to take him to emergency, so my dad's taking him to the vet tomorrow morning and I just. don't. want. to. know. You know? I'm looking up these symptoms and seeing cancers and leukemia and all these horrible things, and I know he's getting on in years (he's 12, maybe 13), but he's been a constant in our house since I was 7 or 8, so the idea that he might not be around... And to lose another one, so soon after... I am just not comprehending what's going on right now. Or, I'm completely ignoring it. Bad defensive mechanism, I realize, but it's the only one I've got going for me.

Here's a picture of him and Simon sleeping all cuddled up together:



Utterly. Rejecting. This. Reality.

I'll let you know what the vet says.

BRB, WEEPING INTO MY TACOS.

The Waldenbooks closest to me is going out of business. On one hand, this sucks because it's half an hour away and it is still the closest. On the other hand, I went in there today and got a whole buttload of these pretty journal things that are like 16 dollars normally, but got discounted 70 percent. I almost bought a Moleskine, but decided against it because I'm not a douche*. I also got Johannes Cabal the Necromancer and a book about a werewolf apocalypse called like Werewolf Apocalypse or something, so that's exciting.



what claudia wore. I don't know if any of you are familiar with the BSC books, but if you are even slightly familiar with them, you know two things:

1) Kristy was awesome and
2) CLAUDIA KISHI WAS AWESOMER.

This is a WHOLE BLOG dedicated to the fact that Claudia Kishi is aces and how she was waaay before her time wearing ridiculous earrings and side ponytails and leggings and other various and sundry hipster stylings, and oh my god the entries are hilarious. I've been backreading for three days. CLAUDIA I LOVE YOU, YOU ROCKSTAR. YOU'LL BE NEAR-LITERATE SOMEDAY.**










*I DO NOT CARE IF YOU OWN A MOLESKINE, I LIKE YOU ALREADY. <3
**If this makes it sound like I enjoyed the BSC series, I didn't really. I just love Kristy's bitchy hilarity and Claudia. The rest of the babysitters sucked. I was a Saddle Club girl tbh.

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FIRST: EPIC JASON STATHAM POST. ~**~**~goodnight sweet prince~**~**~

SECOND: POLL TO GAUGE INTEREST IN AN ORIGINAL-FICTION BIGBANG.

so I banged Alistair in Dragon Age: Origins

when we finished, his approval increased

and he gained a "massive" boost to his constitution

is that supposed to be some sort of innuendo, because I'm not sure and I feel vaguely weirded out by this

Actually, I'm weirded out by this entire relationship, to be honest. Alistair acts like a goofy older brother or something, not someone I should be banging! His approval goes up when I give him gifts that basically amount to action figures, okay?

...Although I do have to admit that the delivery on the "licked a lamppost in winter" line was straight up one of the skeeviest things I've ever heard. Seriously, what the fuck, man.

He's going to end up dead, somehow, I just know it. Dead or dumped Revan-style because I'll have to go someplace he can't follow. I'M WISE TO YOUR GAME, BIOWARE. I KNOW HOW THIS WORKS.

okay so it was actually Obsidian that did the whole "Revan leaving Carth/Bastila" thing but still

SO ANYWAY, GETTING OFF THE TOPIC OF MY NONEXISTENT SEX LIFE:

Dragon Age is probably one of the most infuriating games I've ever played. I feel like an idiot because I should know how to handle the battle system by now (I've recruited the Dalish elves and the Circle, that's two sections of the main quest I've finished), but I still get slaughtered in random enemy encounters. I'm so used to micromanaging what my allies do and controlling aggro, but the combat goes by so dang quickly. I can hardly keep up sometimes. On top of that, so much depends on placement and targeting, and I am constantly thwarted by the camera. I would do so many crazy things for a top-down view that doesn't completely limit my field of vision.

Sometimes battles go completely right, other times it just takes an alternate strategy to mow everyone down, but overall I'm staring at a game over screen more than I'd like. Maybe I should play around with everyone's strategies (I keep wanting to call them gambits :/), but I've checked them out and they seem pretty solid. The game isn't dumb when it comes to automatically selecting what everyone should do during battle when I'm not there holding their hands. Of course, I could be horribly wrong; the strategy screen is intimidatingly complex, and I've only poked around with it a bit.

I don't know. Ugh. Maybe I should check out some guides, see what everyone else is doing, because this isn't working for me. Well, it is working for me, I'm still progressing through the game, but I want to be good at this, you know?

LIST OF PLACES I COULD HAVE LEFT MY CAR KEYS

GO

DISREGARD: THEY WERE ON TOP OF MY DAD'S DRESSER

NOW THE QUESTION IS: WHY THE HELL WERE THEY UP THERE?

Internet hiatus of indeterminate length begins right now. Not that I'm ever on, but this includes Twitter, Lj, Gmail, iChat, it all. Holing myself away in the hopes that good writing, reading, and exercise habits should come out to play.

Basically I can't waste ten hours a day on the Internet anymore. 2010, you can't say I'm not making an effort!

I'M GLAD TO KNOW THAT MY INNER PAIN ALLOWS ME TO CREATE WONDERFUL ART.



FUCK FUCK FUCK.

BRB drinking to the death of cinema. >:/

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"I can't carry it for you, but I can carry you."
♥

United State of Pop 2009 (Blame It on the Pop) - Mashup of Top 25 Billboard Hits by DJ Earworm (via me_maneuver) And here is their 2008 mashup: Viva La Pop.

Cinema 2009 by keesvdijkhuizen. This is a video featuring a ton of movies released in 2009. (I don't think this can be said to be all the movies, but it's certainly a damn lot of them.) (via dragonfly_sg1)

And here's another 2009 movie compilation vid, this time made by oyguvaltshappy:
2009: The Cinescape

FYI, Here is a list of dates for new & returning midseason (Jan-Mar) shows on US television. Yays. I'm looking forward to a lot of those.

Some non-US tv dates:
Jan 04 - Little Mosque on the Prairie
Jan 10 - Being Human (series 2 premiere), Wallander

Also, FYI, BBC America is going to air series one of Survivors on Feb 13th.

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HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

May your 2010 be merry and Blessed. <3

New Years Resolutions:
1. Finish Book(s)
I have a February deadline, but that may be codswallop. At any rate, by the close of 2010, I want to be damn near getting published.
2. Read more books
ffs I didn't even read TEN this year, for all that I claim to love reading
3. Study & Learn something new every day
You got all sorts of history and science books for Christmas. Use them!
4. Exercise at LEAST every other day.
My worst enemy here is not that I put it off, but that I just flat out FORGET.
5. Maintain a clean room.
I needed a fifth to make my list even, and this is something I've had a terrible time with lately. (Lately being the last 20 years.)

I didn't do so hot on my Movie/Book Goal for 2009. I got exactly 100 movies, but failed, failed, FAILED in the reading department. D: This! Year! Will! Be! Different! I would much rather fail on my movie goal and win on my book one. Wouldn't that be nice? To read more than I sit on the couch and stare at the television? Egads.

So. Anyway.

( Movies in 2010 )

( Books in 2010 )

Man, last year sucked so much ass. Here's to hoping the next one is better.

Okay, in my BAAAAAAAAAAWing I forgot to wish everybody a safe and happy NYE (if this is, in fact, how your calendar swings).

2009 was a sweaty ballsack of a year, and I am glad to see the back of it (...okay, this is going on the list of metaphors to NEVER USE AGAIN). However, for the first time in a while, I'm not feeling cynical about the coming year. In the global sense I'm not feeling too great, because wow are we super fucked up right now, but I am cautiously optimistic about 2010 on a more personal level. I want things to go well for me, and I feel like I might be ready to start making them happen, because sitting around and feeling sorry for myself has clearly not been working so far. 2010 IS THE YEAR FOR ACTION.

I hope you all have good things happen to you this year, because you all rock and I'm lucky to have found you. ♥

/sap sap sap



And here is a guy getting his ass exploded by a firework. NONE OF YOU DO THIS.

BUT IF YOU DO, GET VIDEO.

♥

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DO YOU GUYS KNOW HOW OCCASIONALLY SOMETHING STUPID WILL MAKE YOU CHOKE UP AND HAVE TO PHYSICALLY RESTRAIN YOURSELF FROM CRYING?



sad forever

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There is nothing for writing like a murder ballad playlist. Listening to Fire+Ice's version of "Long Lankin" is a bad idea if you're in a good, non-creeped out mood. I'll upload the playlist probably this weekend--it doesn't have many songs on it, but murder ballads tend to be long and one run-through will probably be enough for your psyche.

holmes_big_bang

It is being run by one of my best beloveds, so I would be obligated to pimp even if it was not awesome. And it WILL BE, with your participation! BUT REMEMBER, GUYS: NEIL GAIMAN ALREADY WON IT.*












*can you win a big bang? idk! i'm not even 100 percent sure what big bang is!